It might be a surprise, and it might seem like it requires explanation. The truth is, there is no explanation. There doesn't need to be one. When you take the time to listen to your guts, and your heart, it can say some pretty amazing things. I said I wanted to go home, I listened to what it was referring to. I didn't hesitate because I knew fully it's what I needed, right now. As soon as I hopped on that ferry, I could feel a sense of happiness and relief. Not because I was happy to leave. I'm happy to go back to where I came from.
Nature is a healer. Nature has patience. Nature gets you to listen to yourself. Nature brought me back to where I want to be. Just that simple. I really didn't expect it to speak so firmly, and at the time that it did. It said that now is not the time. That's totally fair. I agree.
I acted so quickly, I didn't give myself time to think about what I was actually doing. For real, I was loading that car back up again, saying to myself, "what the f*ck is going on?" It was like jumping off the high dive all over again. What a rush! It sorta needed to be done that way, or else I'd be pacing with my thoughts.. though I still sorta am. I'm dreaming, I'm sure of it.
Leaving the island, is like leaving a really hot girlfriend
(quote, Peter). She was so lovely, but not always kind to me. There were some challenges, and that was part of the process. It's just handy to know when the challenges become far too many to take on all at once. New job, new life, new surroundings, new elements, new emotions. I learned that I can ask for help.
The landscapes I saw, will always remain in my mind. The things I didn't get to take pictures of, were just so damn mind blowing. I wish I had a brain printer, so I could show you all. I feel special to know that those memories are for me only, and will illustrate such a crucial point in my life of getting to know what my heart is asking for. I took a chance on something really cool, I lived it, I did it, I enjoyed it, I survived, I grew. I succeeded. There is no failure, no regret, and no giving up. This is still the same adventure!
I could go on for days about how profound my experiences have been, but I'll say it in short, that I'm touched and overwhelmed by the endless support I've received; since even before we hit the road to come here. Endless. This opportunity was incredible, and it turned into a point in my life that I'll never ever forget. I needed this. Thank you, thank you, a million times, thank you.
So much more to spill, but this is just right now.
Adventures never end!